It all started when I felt bruised, wounded, defeated and hopeless...
It was the start of a long lockdown, a period of uncertainty, a time of despair... when everything looked hopeless and tomorrow looked so bleak...
I was sad.
I was lost.
I was scared.
It was the start of the worldwide pandemic and the entire country was put on lockdown. For the first time ever, I lost hope to what tomorrow may bring. I was just scared and unsure of where life would take us.
That was when I found STRENGTH.
That's when I fell in love with the BANGTAN boys.
I have always known about them but I was more into their dance moves and would often watch their dance practice videos. I would feel happy when I hear news about them slowly trying to make it big in the music industry, mostly because I was Asian and I cheered them on for that. Basically that was about it. I knew of BTS.
The lockdown forced me to do things I did not have time to do before. I would spend hours on Netflix watching all the Kdramas I could find. I then came upon Itaewon Class. As I was a big fan of PSJ, I binged watched on it and finished it in a day. I loved the story and the music that came with it. This is when I discovered Sweet Night. V's beautiful voice enchanted me. I was hooked. I couldn't stop listening to the song. It put my heart at ease everytime I would hear it. So I started searching for V and his songs... then I came their Dear Class of 2020 message and performance.
We are in different parts of the world, in different environments and circumstances. But in this moment, I hope we can all give each other a warm pat on the back and say, "It's okay".
Just this once...
Are you doing well or walking the path of failure...
You are the leader of your fortune.
Many of us are at war with reality now. But I hope we can take bits of this moment with us in a photograph or memo to look back and remember today. and how it compares to the new today you are embracing.
If there is anyone out there who cannot see where they should go from here forth, I urge you to listen to your heart.
Things may be a little difficult now but somwehere out there luck and opportunity is waiting for you. I believe that.
The fear of an obscure future as our daily lives turned upside down is a moment of realization of the self, of what makes me .... me.
We're alone... together.
... and this sealed the deal for me.
Their messages gave me the hope that I lost. It made me want to stand up and fight against whatever challenges that I am facing at the moment. It made me look forward again to what tomorrow brings.
Because of that video, I started getting to know the seven wonderful Bangtan boys. I watched what I could on You Tube, Daily Motion, Vlive and WeVerse.
That was the start...
That was when I knew that my heart is BULLETPROOF.
